Refiner's Fire

Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive. My dads being impacted by your love for me, and how it is shown compare to any other person or religion. God is love, and people will know Christs disciples by their love. So I am so overwhelmed, thanks is never enough.
Some of you may know, some may not so ill explain. Last saturday about 5am in morning don't know for sure my mom died from cardiac arrest. It was very sudden on me, she cared for me when my back pain was too much she helped. My mom was so wonderful to me, I miss her so much.
Last three yrs she had breathing difficulty the doctors never came back with a diagnosis. All we thought is from her poor health, smoking, etc. She had quit but still experienced breathing difficulty. Also sweating from neck while walking a lot. Her doctor put her on prednisone, id not recommend it if not sure why breathing problem. It made my moms heart condition worrse, corrtisol levels higher, bump on neck from that. Raised sodium levels, one severe side effect is heart attack. She was on high does for a mnth. Previous to this she was on smaller dose and it still made her sick afterwards.
so three weeks before her death, she was sick every week. Breathing difficulty, upset stomach, low grade fever but then would get better.
well friday day vomitted, upset tummy and pain. But we all thought shed get better didn't realize these symptoms are also related to women heart attacks.

However they'll never do an autopsy so we will never know. I believe her heart was weak, left side something wrong which regulates breathing, oxygen, circulation. So I will become an advocate for womens heart disease, for my mom. None of us including her saw this coming.
Im still in shock. Still in unbelief and cry alot. I don't handle grief wll, but I know in time ill heal.

I have witnessed to many, I see how God is working in all this timing of little things and comfort in my life. If you know steven he and his family has been blessing to me and eileen. Thank you.
God has given me comfort and strength. I can't say for sure if my moms in Heaven, but I like to think so. Like to think she's not sufferring anymore and looking down at me. She was simple belief: she believed Jesus did it all for her to be with God, and Jesus died for her sins. She knew God made all things good for us. That's about it, only God knows. Emotions are so hard though.. I really miss her so please pray that God continues to give me strength and comfort.
thanks again, thanks Bob and Ruth for the Roses so pretty. Gods creation is pretty. love you, love my family.